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W4m So basiy I am bored as Need something new and exciting sick of boring and want someone to entertain me. I act my age at times, and other times I act like a kid. Im a bigger man but love to give oral pleasure.
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I don't have any hobbies with the exception of reading , or interests. I have tried to get into all sorts of things but the enthusiasm just isn't there. I've tried jogging, cycling, nature photography, writing, yoga, meditation, walking, and golf. All these things were ok when I started but never lasted more than a few months before I stopped doing them because I just couldn't be bothered. I have friends but can't be bothered to keep in touch, which makes me feel lonely as I don't hear from them very often.
Facebook leaves me feeling miserable as I see people getting on with their lives and I cannot relate to them as I have no interests or hobbies. I can't focus on tasks at work. No matter how much or how little I have to do I always find myself just mentally wandering off after half an hour or so. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a few years ago, and went to CBT sessions to manage my symptoms. I had very low self-esteem and self-worth stemming from childhood and it led me to be very needy, and insecure.
I felt great coming out of the therapy after a few months, but now I just feel flat. I find myself constantly trying to "change" things to make life more interesting but I do the wrong things. I buy a new coffee mug, or backpack, use a different web browser, get a new email account.
Stupid little things that make no difference really to the way I feel but I become obsessed about them. I can spend a whole day researching new bags, then go out of my way to get a new one. Then after a few weeks I decide I didn't want it and throw it away. It almost feels like binge eating, and then throwing up afterwards, except I do it with "things". I struggle to find the energy or the motivation to play with my kids, which makes me feel like a terrible parent.
I'll take them out for day trips etc. I have tried to get interested in things, such as sports, current affairs, politics, science, but it just doesn't work. I cannot "force" myself to be interested in these things. So I end up feeling lost in my own life. I don't know what I want to do, I try and find an identity in the things I own, and I feel lonely all the time, but don't want to speak to people.
I'm on antidepressants and have been for ages now. They work, and I can tell if I have missed a day or two. But now my brain just feels dead. It is also mentally exhausting trying to articulate these feelings. I WANT a passion, an interest, a "raison d'etre", but there is nothing there.
I feel like a have been at the back of a very long queue, and now I've got to the front the shop is empty. What do I do? I do feel trapped however by the fact that I have to look after my kids while my F goes to work.
She has the more demanding job and my boss is quite flexible so I am able to work from home and look after the kids after school. But there is no freedom for me to do anything on my own. I am either at work, or at home but can't do anything on my own. When the kids go to bed I tend to either watch porn for hours, or sleep, before getting up in time for my F to come home about 10pm from work. The only thing I regularly do is read and I enjoy it, but I don't want to do it all the time.
I've recently joined Slimming World to lose weight as I was massively overweight so much so that my F didn't fancy me anymore and we had stopped having sex. That made me feels so low and worthless. But I am steadily losing weight and that is great, so I am hoping that with renewed energy and vigour I will be able to start taking and interesting and enjoyment in things.
But I wonder if it runs deeper than that. And the one place I know I need to make the effort, playing with my kids, I find really hard to do. Genuine lack of "that thing that I want to do"? I really don't know. A big emptiness that surrounds me, and I can't see the way out. I know I am not alone in feeling this way. So I guess I want to put my feelings out there somewhere.
One of the things about depression is that it switches the link between motivation and action so you end up having to do things before you feel motivated to do them. It probably won't appeal but just in case you might find mindfulness meditation helps - try 'Mindfulness: It comes with a CD and is based on a 6 or is it 8? The idea is to be more aware of what is happening in the now and being able to just be rather than continually looking for that elusive something. Exercise also helps some people and would certainly help with the weight loss but then you may be doing that already.
Are you seeing your doctor about your weight? If so it might be worth mentioning how you are feeling. Even if you aren't seeing your GP about your weight it might be worth making an appointment to get checked out.
It may be that there is an underlying cause that is manifesting itself as depression. I am beginning to realise that if I wait for myself to be motivated, I just don't do stuff. I am having to go back to writing myself a schedule for the day. This forces me to think about what are the things i most need to do, otherwise i only tend to potter about doing bits and pieces, when i get a spurt of enthusiasm. I don't plan too far ahead, I made that mistake before, and ended up getting cross at myself for not doing all the planned stuff.
Working from home and looking after kids is a challenge. It does sound like time is not an issue Or renew some childhood hobbies, alongside your kids, just for the fun of it, rather than because it is something you feel that you have to do.
From what i'm reading at the moment, it does seem that the key is to first identify what your values are , they are the raw materials for your goals then makes plans, and take action to do it Rather than trying to seek motivation from a vague idea of stuff that you think you "should"do,. I know this sounds obvious, but speaking as someone who drifts through day to day life, it has given me food for thought.
Take a look at the youtube vid values cards exercise demonstration. It is odd but at my age i had not yet got a notion of what my longterm priorities in fact are. Perhaps the hardest lesson of all is learning not to beat yourself up when you do not live up to your own expectations. I had anxiety issues from childhood. I don't even have a fond childhood to remember or look back on and smile, as all i see was hatred, racism, anger and loneliness and detachment from society altogether.
I firstly had to accept who i was and make the most of the merits i have as a person. I found having a pet can help. I feel the same,I live by myself kids have grown see grandkids etc,I volunteer etc,I like guarding ,reading,walking with my friends but when I Coe home I'm lonely hate living alone,I would love to move in with a family member,but don't no if that is possible I think living with them will be the best thing, I just need to do something about this.
Hi Len, you are the elder of the family so have a get together at your house and ask them if they don't mind. Give them the option to be open and frank. I'm assuming they live close by you could do a rota, stay the weekend in one place and another else where and come home for a few weeks.
I spend time with my neighbour who is very elderly, and I can understand the importance of having someone to talk to. I'm going to try a new hobby which is radio controlled boats. Maybe you could try getting some roomaits? I used to have this problem. I started finding things to do, like playing videogames or building things. That worked for me for over a year but now I am even bored with the internet, facebook and video games.
I think I've just outlived my time. I have seen and done everything and I'm still bored with life. I guess that's why change is necessary even though I hate change. This is the most accurate description of how I feel, even though logically, it's not true. I have not done a lot of things that I want to but I feel trapped by my life, by my circumstances, and I don't know how to break free. Hi, find an app named journey.
And start writing journals daily. Like speaking to you secret diary. Help me to self reflect. I feel exactly the same lost soul, I think talking about it helps a lot with the 'intensity' of numbness. I agree with some of the other guys on here that depression requires action before motivation and that's what is so difficult about it.
In my case I started a blog, Mattsmusings. It doesn't feel like my passion either, I'm not sure I can feel passion any more , but I think 'forcing' yourself to play with your kids might be helpful, young children do not suffer from depression until we let the world at them so let them be your teacher. Also I found that taking 'joy' in other's fulfilment is good, and helping others find and achieve their goals can help us to find ours and even if it doesn't at least there's some self esteem to be had from it.
It sucks I know, but if you're of a spiritual nature try searching 'sadhguru ' his teachings have helped me recently. One love, peace and happiness. I have watched every sadghuru video and listen to his podcast and while I completely subscribe to his view on life I can't snap out of my depression.
This past weekend, I stumbled upon all of these old scrapbooks I used to make just for fun back in high school. Do you remember that?
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